Broken

As little girls we have been made to believe that our prince charming's will ride in on a white horse and sweep us off our feet and everything will be great and we will live happily ever after.Truth is Disney lied to us all and continues to lie.My favorite Disney movie was always Beauty and the Beast alot of girls felt like they could relate to Beauty.Me I always related to Beast.Why?Because I always thought if someone could see the good in the Beast that surely someone could see the good in me and love me too.That could still be true but as the years go on I start to lose hope.I'm a clutzy person and trip alot but the falls that have hurt me the worse are the ones who have names.The guys that have sweet talked me and led me on just to make me realize that i'm always second best.I don't know why i'm never good enough to be the one and not the second.But I fear the one that finally loves me will have been the one who settled for second best.Truth is the only man who will never let you fall,never lie to you,&never consider you second best is God.And right now he is the only man I put my trust in.And he will be the one holding onto my heart from now on cause in my hands it only gets broken.When God sees it right then he can give my heart to the right man.I'm left a broken mess after this last fall but in time I will heal again.Hopefully God won't let me take my heart back again.I am not the best person to be handling such fragile items.